when people bring up something and keep talking about it, not knowing how much you were hurt by it…. :/
i wish i could say i have no regrets. but while i do admit i learned A LOT from it, i cant say i dont regret it at all.
people shouldnt be forced to live with the consequences of poor decisions they made at such young ages T_T if i had known i would live with people haunting me about it for so many years i would have definitely made different choices
first time getting perm since soph year of high school… but i’m having the SAME exact thoughts i had 4 years ago:
“i cant wait until 3-4 weeks have gone by and my curls are LOOSE and prETTAYY.”
heh
Her skin is white cloth, and she’s all sewn apart and she has many colored pins sticking out of her heart.
But she knows she has a curse on her, a curse she cannot win. For if someone gets too close to her,the pins stick farther in.
(via cindysoojichoi)
LOL OMGAHH i want a big dog like this… and i wanna try this HAHAHA
(via esaeyi)
(kate convinced me i need to write my dramatic end of the year post NOW.)
I have my last final in about 12 hours.
I LEGIT think I am going to come out of the final in tears… (hopefully) not because of the exam… but because i will be DONE. this semester will be OVER. i will be HOME the next day.
I can very honestly say that this has been the worst semester EVER. Maybe even tops the worst 5 months ever in my life…
I’ve never cried so much, gotten sick so much, been hopeless so much, felt alone so much, gotten angry at God so much, been confused so much, felt things out of my control so much in such a short period in my life before. i’ve never dealt with so many things at once before.
I’ve actually never skipped church so much before in my life…
Talk about sophomore slump haha..
And I’m not going to sit here and write a post about how my life magically turned upside down and I’m all OK now. But rather, I’m going to talk about how I still have SO much do deal with… but that now I’m not trying to find all the answers, but rather just seek rest in Him.
IF there is one thing I learned this semester, its that I can be bitter at God all I want, I can pity myself all I want, I can try to pretend I’m ok all I want… but in the end, I’ll never find rest and peace unless I’m in the presence of God.
Will I know all the answers? No. Will I ever be completely OK with everything that has happened? Probably not. Will I find complete healing on this earth? Only God knows. But after running an extremely exhausting and unfruitful race this semester(year), I’ve come to a point where I dont even want those things anymore. I want to be comforted by His embrace and be reminded of His GRAND love for me that makes the suffering seem so small.
Its really quite funny talking to my classmates… it seems all of us sophomores had quite a rough semester. And its as if we were all so busy trying to finish this race that we forgot to look to our left & right… But I think we’ve learned from this experience to be more prayerful in our relationships..and what better timing? Half of us are going to be off-campus next semester.
I guess I want to end by saying that I dont want this semester to be remembered as “sophomore SLUMP” but as “sophomore HATCHING”. Its like freshman year…we were little babies, so well protected by the shell consisting of spiritual highs and excitement for college. But then sophomore year things got REAL. We had to hatch out of our eggs and start this painful (but NOT PERMANENT!) process of growing. I guess this means we can look forward to the day we are all flying around with our full grown wings… right? :D haha twas an awful semester but if it really was the first step for me to fully grow into what God has intended for me to be, then I’ll take it and learn from it. Hopefully.
Paul Krugman, not my favourite Nobel laureate by any measure, but very succinct observation here.
“The problem with digital books is that you can always find what you are looking for, but you need to go to a bookstore to find what you weren’t looking for.”
this makes my heart burst so much cus i know my mom would say the same, if not more, to me!!! so blessed to have a mother who i KNOW with confidence LOVES ME so much <3 엄마 아이럽유 ^3^
Dear Scarlet,
I didn’t plan on being a mother when I was 19. If my life were a story, that’s not a chapter I would have willingly written. I didn’t pick this, but I would never ever change it. It’s not a part of my story I would even consider editing. I have absolutely no idea who I would be without you or what I would be doing. I was selfish before we met, I was a bratty kid. You turned me into a woman. You taught me about patience and gratitude. Your father and I probably would have never made an honest effort to stay together if you weren’t in the picture, and I’m so glad that we did. I had a lot of amazing years with him, and that’s on you. I learned so much from our marriage. His decision to join the Air Force for you moved us to Oklahoma where we met some of the most genuine and quality people I’ve ever had in my life. I can’t express how excited I am that they’re a part of your life as well. We wouldn’t know them if it weren’t for you. You’ve been there with me through everything, I’ve known you my entire adult life. We grow together. We learn together. We face the ugly and experience the amazing parts of life together. You’re my constant. My only constant. You’re a part of me, like a baby kangaroo in my pouch. I’ll protect you. I’ll keep you company. I’ll comfort you. I don’t know where I’d be without you, Scarlet, but I’m so so happy not to be there. Of all the humans in all the worlds, I’m incredibly grateful that you’re the one who I get to call my daughter. I love you. - Mom
how awesome would it be to have the avengers come into this lounge at duffield and tell me to study….
(via erikapark)
he who would glorify his god must set his account upon meeting with many trials. no man can be illustrious before the lord unless his conflicts be many. if then, yours be a much-tried path, rejoice in it, because you will the better show forth the all-sufficient grace of god. as for his failing you, never dream of it - hate the thought. the god who has been sufficient until now should be trusted to the end.
- charles spurgeon
